How does one prepare for Federal Prison as your definitive surrender date approaches?
Interesting question isn't it? Think about it for a moment... What would you do? What would be your bucket list? Would there be enough time to complete your list?
There are no "official guide books" or "Cliff Notes" to describe what one must do to prepare for federal prison. So the majority of my days have been researching, studying, chatting with authors and pouring over countless data from the internet.
Yvon Chouinard, from the movie 180° South, once said, "The greatest fear, is the fear of the unknown." (I think he paraphrased it from an older quote.) In that movie, several individuals were traveling to Patagonia via a small sailboat to climb an epic mountain. During their journey they encountered many difficulties and obstacles. But ultimately overcame and adapted to each one. Some obstacles were seriously life threatening while others weren't. But reflecting back on that movie, what struck a chord inside me and helped me find the inner strength and courage to face my fears and struggles was that they survived. Jeff Johnson, the narrator of the movie stated "The best journeys answer questions that in the beginning you didn't even think to ask." What questions will I have after my incarceration with the Federal Bureau of Prisons?
Having been granted the privilege to "self surrender" to federal custody has provided me the opportunity, post conviction, to get my drab, wretched life in order. It also has provided me the privilege to prepare my children, my family, my friends and address my medical and dental issues before my incarceration. It has also afforded me to spend some quality time with family, children and close friends before my epic journey begins. Not too bad of a deal considering it could have be much, much worse.
When I was officially indicted by a Federal Grand Jury, my life immediately turned into an uncontrolled train wreck. My professional career and rising star of a political career was immediately turned into shambles. Everything I worked so hard for my whole life was immediately ruined... Forever... Never to be the same again. The shame, embarrassment, humiliation brought upon my life was crippling financially and emotionally.
Although my alleged crime was not violent and I never had any violent issues in my past, my sentencing Judge was generous enough to allow me to self surrender directly to the Federal Prison instead of being hauled off in shackles and staying in some dank dungeon until the Bureau of Prisons (BOP) found a place for me to serve my time.
I have read and heard many verbal stories of "Diesel Therapy" The BOP's finely crafted art of breaking your balls by busing you from place to place, all hours of the day and night, keeping you on the constant move for many months without any mail, phone or contact from family, children and friends.
Psychologists have made the claim that "Going through sad experiences actually makes us smarter & through that we become better thinkers."
Don't run from the lessons in life. Anything that hurts you has the ability to teach you.
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